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I remember a recent post on here about "best foods" website. I can't find it right now. It might have been hidden in a response. I know that all of my recent posts have sounded completely desperate and despondent and I am sorry about that. I can't ever remember a time in my life when I have felt so low. Hubby and son just went out for a few hours and I feel like the past year+ worth of tears, pain and frustration is coming out all at one time. I didn't know I could cry so much. I have never been so overcome with pure despondency in all my life. Well, not true. I have had a few major traumas that resulted in me completely falling apart, but it's been a long time and I'd forgotten how bad one could feel. I know what I need to do today. I need to pray. I need to take care of myself physically, fueling my body with the best foods I can find (which is what started this post). I also need to find the book that Alan mentioned (Turning suffering from the inside out). Those are my 3 goals for the day. I feel better typing my way through this because now I have a plan. I know there is no real diagnosis as a "nervous or mental breakdown", but that is exactly how I feel right now. Is this part of the process, or am I losing my mind? I know I need something better in the way of antidepressants. I will put a call into my doctor tomorrow about that. I will also call to try to move my rheumatologist appt up. I have switched to a more aggressive rheumy and hope that was the right thing to do. I liked my previous rheum (as a person) and hated to leave him. I also plan on more "self care" activities, such as scheduling weekly massages. Finances have been very tight the past several months, but once I'm a bit more financially secure, I am going to take care of myself by allowing myself the luxury of a massage (hopefully weekly). I feel guilty doing things for myself (especially when they involve money), but I am realizing that I really HAVE to take care of myself. I'm also going to adjust my work life. I plan to hire some clinicians and do more administrative work, rather than seeing clients myself. I think that will help. For any of you out there who pray, would you mind praying for me? This is a hard thing for me to ask, as I feel somewhat selfish for doing it. I don't want to end up in the mental ward. I apolosigze for the rambling post. I hope everyone out there is well. love, j

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Please don't feel selfish for asking for prayers! I am happy to send many your way. You are dealing with a lot and you seem to be getting through it pretty well. I think it's wise to sit down like you did and type it out. You have a good plan - just take it a step at a time.

I totally understand what you are saying. You sound very strong and I know you can do this! I'm working on getting on to a similar path as well with eating right, adjusting my scheduling, etc.

Hang in there and keep posting - we're here for you!

Hugs,

Jen

I know you are feeling pretty alone right now, but I hope you know you are not and never need to be while we are here. It's good for you to come to us and at least get your feelings out.

I have already said a prayer for you and will continue to do so. I hope the prayers and thoughts you are receiving are bringing you some peace.

Was there any one event or problem that made you feel the way you are right now? If you want to share, I am always here for you.

It seems like you have a good plan for dealing with your work. Sometimes you have to delegate, so you can take care of some of the bigger problems that arise.

I'm glad you are calling your doctor. It probably will have to be Tues. as tomorrow is a holiday. But if you need someone sooner, call your doctor's office and have them try to reach him, even if it is a holiday or weekend. Some things are too important to wait, and this is one of them. The sooner you get on the proper med., the sooner you can start to feel more in control of your life.

Feel free to PM me any time you need to talk or get things off your mind.

God Bless You, Sweetie.

Much love,

Nini

Dear Darrel, I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling so much right now yourself. I have been so consumed with my own issues, I neglected to see your earlier posts and wanted to welcome you to the board. This board has been a lifeline for me, especially over the past few days. I hope you are feeling better soon. Love and hugs, Juliah

I ordered the book from amazon.com...took about 3 days to arrive.

You absolutely need to take care of yourself. I would be happy to pray for you.

Alan

Another book I've been reading that you might find interesting...on food. It's called "Real Food" by Nina Planck...found it at Borders...I think. I've been changing my diet to include a lot more anti-inflammatory foods like: dark berries (blueberries and blackberries), other fresh fruit, fish (salmon and tuna...with lots of Omega 3's), unsalted walnuts and walnut butter, olive oil, etc. I'm also eating more grass-fed meats and free-range eggs. I do think diet makes a difference though it's not a cure. A good diet can also help with depression.

Alan

Hi again Julia,

I would check with your insurance to see if they cover Physical Therapy or Massage therapy. In our state (WA) insurance companies have to cover it. If a physician orders it you might just have to pay the co-pay.

I know that making 3 goals might not seem like a lot right now, but I am so proud of you. It takes a lot of mental energy and focus. I think women especially, put our physical needs aside as there is the family to take care.

love,
Mary
Hi Julia,

I have been and continue to pray for you. Knowing what you have been up against I need to let you know that you have helped me to have to face some of my own emotional pain and frustration re this disease. I thank you for that. HUGS Hi Julia,
Could this be the link you are thinking of?
The World's Healthiest Foods
http://www.whfoods.com/

which as the handy list
The Handy List
http://www.whfoods.com/foodstoc.php

You know what? When you're so depressed it's hard to get one thing done, so making a goal of 3 (even if you don't get them all done) is a testement of personal inner strength!

Someday soon, if possible, you might look into sarting a moderate excercise routine if you don't already have one. I don't mean to trivialise depression, but it really can help.

I'm an atheist but I'll be sending out positive thoughts into the universe for you, which is the atheist's prayers! I hope those will do in a pinch.

Love yourself; you deserve a weekly massage.

Juliah,

I am so sorry you are having a difficult time. You are such a wonderful person...evident by your pain yet you took time out to post about my situation with Dolce.

I'm glad you have a plan, a good one at that. You have made some decision to take control of your life. That is such a huge step. You are one strong lady. I share your frustrations with how this disease changes us and what we are able to do. At first I didn't really see it, but it has changed my life quite a bit in the past few months. Please, don't ever hesitate to talk to us. We love you and will always be here for you. I will pray for you tonight.

God bless you,

Phats