Hi,
Looks like I'll be going on Long Term Disability now and I am pretty upset at the prospect. What started off today as me just going to Dr's office for a note allowing me to return to work next week turned into a request for 6-8 months of Long Term Disability.
Just this past week, I had posted my anxiety about my 26 weeks of short term disability coming to an end. I was worried about how I was going to be able to handle getting back to work when I am still so UN-functional...
Sooo, you would think I would feel relieved, wouldn't you? BUT I DON'T. I feel scared and dejected. With the short term thing always being evaluated monthly, I felt constantly hopeful that each month would be THE month, y'know? And this is a big one - with the STD, my job status (my territory, my accounts, customers etc.) was completely protected for me.
Now of course my company will not be able to keep doing that. That much I know. But I have no idea what they can and will do for me now. Does anyone have experience with going on LTD with a company and then resuming their career with them later?
And on the social front, my friends have all kept in touch thinking I would be back at any time. I had been forced into moving (temporarily I thought) a few hours away from where I have been living in the DC area all my adult life to be closer to my famiiy when this all first went down because I was needing so much help. But now I am afraid that will begin fading away too...
This is just really a mess. I never ever imagined that something could happen to me like this that could just put my life so indefinitely on hold. How can you possibly hold on to any kind of faith or hope when there are so few answers to and so few timelines/timeframes to hold on for? Seriously?
Melly
Melly, I am so sorry that you have to apply. I can understand your feelings of loss. Keep talking about it.
Melly, I am so sorry you got this news today and it has you so down. It is a hard pill to swallow, I'm sure, and everyone here is impacted by the looming possibility of this. Quite a few are already there, other's are worried it may be in their future. I know it's scary, and it feels like your life has been snatched away from you.
But the important thing is LIFE. You're still here, and you still have people who love you, and people whom you love, and you still have much happiness ahead of you in your future. Even if you can't see it now.
All of this will take some time to process, and there are still many changes ahead for you. There are many folks on here who had been experiencing crippling pain and disability and are now feeling dramatically better, and are living full happy lives. You will too. Just don't give up on your life, keep yourself determined to feel better and to have a life that fulfills you.
When you find yourself going into a negative thought process, thinking about all the things you worry might happen, remind yourself to think of all the positive possibilities there are in your future. Imagine happiness instead of sadness. Focus on all that you have that you are grateful for, and teach yourself to turn off negative, unproductive thoughts. The mind is a powerful thing, closely connected to our spirit, and it can bring about great happiness or great sadness in the same life circumstance.
And come here, join in on the fun upbeat discussions. Get to know the folks here and use the support that is here for you! It is powerful (and so are you). You can do this, look at all you have already accomplished in your life!
How can you possibly hold on to any kind of faith or hope when there are so few answers to and so few timelines/timeframes to hold on for? Seriously?
You hang on to faith because there is no other option. Keep planning for the future. Keep looking for answers. Keep family and friends and the important things in life...you'll get it all back.
Hugs,
Pip
So sorry to hear about this. I too wonder what will happen if I can't work for a month, or two or longer. I start back to work full-time (had a few weeks off between summer and fall quarter) and don't know how I will handle it.Thanks so much people! There is some good advice here that is doing me good to kind of re-read and re-read until I get my positivity (if that is a word) back. I know a lot of people could probably really use and would appreciate this LTD situation. I am sure I will end up there in the long run too, but right now I am just struggling with how unteathered (hope that one IS a word cause it is exactly how I feel) I feel right now..
Thanks,
Melly
HI Melly, I am one who is already there and have been for 7 years, I was a career woman and had a hectic social life, never thought I would cope but this disease has a way of slowing us down and I am content now, sometimes frustrated but grateful for each day with my kids, hubby and friends. Life is short and we are doing it tough, the only advice I have for you is search for the positives and don't dwell on the negatives. Best of luck Melly, this site really helps as unfortunately we are not alone with this dreaded disease but it sure helps to talk to people that we know understand what we are going through!!!