Has anyone heard from Cordy? I haven't seen her name on here for a while, I hope she is ok. I think I will PM her. HUgs Janie.
I've been PMing Cordy and she'll be on soon.Thanks Sarah.
Hi Janie,
Thanks for caring darl.
I have been very, very depressed. So depressed I could not read any posts let alone write one.
I have been crying a lot and not coping and didn't really realise I wa depressed until a few days ago.
I
have not been on the board because of my hands but really also because
I have been depressed so I have been withdrawing. I have been withdrawing and insular and hiding from
all my friends and the people who care about me.
Two things have happened right now that have contributed.
1. My divorce has come through. And although he is a wanker a sh*tload of grief has hit me.
2.
At the same time, I have needed to put a disability form in and I have
been avoiding as again great feelings of loss of having been such a
capable and competent person has been devastating.
So no, I am not okay but I think I will be now i am acknowledging it.
I am feeling a little better in the last two days after realising what was going on and crying my eyes out.
I am attempting to post again as you can see, just because being withdrawn and insular is making me worse and if I post it will help even though it is very difficult. I have put a couple of replies on tonight and I will make myself do some more tomorrow. I am really missing everyone but it's just been too hard...withdrawing has been easier.
This disease just sucks.
Cordy,
I am so sorry! You're very loved here and we all have missed your posts and PM's . Take care of yourself.
Hugs and much love
Steph
Hi, Cordy, my gosh honey, you have been through it lately and for sure , crying is okay! I'm so sorry this dumb stuff has got you and , and, and. Please let us keep hearing from you as we 'become' your family. We understand, we want to hear no matter what!! we worry, we miss you, girl. LyndaTrying to post it helping a lot and I knew I need to do it but it was impossible until a few days ago. I couldn't even read posts. I couldn't post to say I was depressed. That's not good. Hi ya sweet girl, we understand,Thanks, Link. And yes, you are right, that is exactly the time I should be reaching out. I know I need the people who care about me a lot around me. And I care enormously about all of you, you are my 'family' in many, many, ways.
Just remember, crying is theapeutic. It really does help us purge all those built up emotions. Tears are unique to humans, and I believe they are a gift from God - so cry it out girl! Then you'll be ready to move on.
You don't need to take giant leaps forward right now. Small steps forward are just fine. And coming back here and sharing with people who care is a great step. We'll be here to help support your steps, and even to give you a kick in the butt if you need it!
You have a great, loving spirit, and it will shine through, just hold on!