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When do you feel the most defeated?

When my normally elevated bloods are in the normal range or not too much over it, and I still feel like crap!!!!!!! 

When I take my pain killers and the pain doesn't get killed!!!!!

When I start a new healthy eating regimen and find I can't stick to it because I crave junk foods due to my depression and pred!!!!

When I have a reasonable day pain wise and do some minimal housework or minimal exercise and realise the only way not to flare is to do nothing!!!!!!!

I am sure there are many more.  Good thread Joonie, hugs Janie.
When my son wants spaghetti and I can't open the jar of sauce.When I'm ready for a nap a few hours after waking up.  When my 38 yr old body acts like I imagine a 70 yr old body would.when I realize I can't participate in Ally's school events. They wanted me to transport 4 kindergartners and I just cant do it.. and I went to  their science fair and was utterly exhausted  within  20 minutes. when I set up the kids play tent and fell asleep on the sofa instead of playing in it with them.when even getting into my stairlift chair is like climbing a mountain.When I first wake up and I haven't moved, thinking hmmm this isn't so bad, so I start thinking of all the things I want to get done ...making plans. Then I get up to make coffee and from the bed to the kitchen I realize I was only dreaming.Yep, all that has been said and more.  When hubby comes home and says....were you able to get anything done today...nope!When I can't hold my son. Today. After I am done with Yoga class and don't feel any better maybe worse. Today! Is absolutely right....actually for the last two weeks.  Ok.... it was not meant to be depressing. When yet another DMARD or Biologic failsstrange i've never paid any attention to my blood work, unless the MTX starts infecting the kidneys.. and I have to go off...after 2 yrs, i still don't know what sed rates are.. Oh and I also feel defeated sometimes when I try to decide what I want to be "when I grow up".  Every time something new comes in to sight.  From dairy allergy, to problems with sugar and splenda etc. etc. etc.  it just keeps growing and when the next one comes around, it just feels like the world wants to get me.Joonie, it's a great thread and a good question.  What's even better is how you are semi-doing better!  Moana, you crack me up.  Overwhelmed.  We get overwhelmed.  I get overwhelmed in a hot kitchen trying to get dinner for people in good health, sitting around watching you sweat to pull it off.  I miss losing my baking and sewing skills,  And all these new ways to open, well anything.  Overwhelming.  I tell the package its only oil and I can defeat it :) 

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