..called conquering RA. As soon as I get it I'm going to read it
cover to cover and if I find anything helpful at all I will let you all
know. Don't worry I don't believe the quacks - I'm the biggest
cynic out there but you never know. I had a really sad night last
night. I remember when I was at primary school, sometimes my gran
would be standing outside waiting to collect me. I loved her so much
but she had a stick and some of the kids used to make fun of me because
of it. I used to take it out on her on the way home. I told
her years later how sorry I was but when she died it really bugged me.
Anyway, last night I wrote Austin a letter for when he is older
to because I bet he'll feel like that about me. I told him he
wasn't ever to feel bad about being embarrassed about me or for
anything he said or did. I know it's morbid and I wont think like
that again but I was so low last night and I'm glad I did it because i
got my mum to put it away for me and that way I know that no matter
what, he'll know it was ok. Sorry to be so sad but it just made
me feel so much better.
I think I might actually be a bit depressed just now - think I might go
get some prozac or something because I'm usually like tigger and I've
turned into a bit of an eeyore.
[QUOTE=julie]...last night I wrote Austin a letter for when he is older to because I bet he'll feel like that about me. I told him he wasn't ever to feel bad about being embarrassed about me or for anything he said or did. I know it's morbid and I wont think like that again but I was so low last night and I'm glad I did it because i got my mum to put it away for me and that way I know that no matter what, he'll know it was ok. Sorry to be so sad but it just made me feel so much better.
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This was probably a good idea. It probably gave you closure on feeling bad about your grandmother. Austin will most likely appreciate it, when the time comes that he reads it.
I am sorry you are feeling
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