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I noticed a couple of days ago that if I ever see a picture of myself I will take notice of my body and how RA has effected me. I can look at a picture of myself and tell you just what body part was swelled and "flaring". Not because I remember, but because I can see it.

My hubby made his daddy a slide show of pictures of all of us that plays in the DVD player. I was sitting there watching it and a couple of pictures of me popped up and I noticed you can tell what body parts were effected.
 
There is this one picture of me standing there on the beach and I look like a T-Rex, because my arms will not straighten nor bend. They are at rest in the picture. That is how my arms look most of the time. There is this other picture of me with the family at the in-laws new house, and my arms look the same way. It is just... so upsetting that it is even visible to others. You know how when you "think" others are looking at you because of the way you move, stand or even walk? And then... people tell you it is all in your head, that no one is really noticing you. Yeah RIGHT! That is a bunch of BULL! I mean if I can notice it in a picture flashing across a tv screen for 10 seconds... no telling what people who actually seen me in real life can notice about me.
 
I am sorry you worry about what others think of you. I honestly do not care myself what others think of me. LOL Maybe i am just old and bitter. Then I guess it is good that you are not old and bitter. Maybe it is a good thing that you care what others think. I think you are a really special person. That is my opinion of you.It is, what it is, you look fine :)
 
Imagine being a burned victim!! now that would be truly awful!
gees was expecting a Bikini    hey Joonie just thinking if you combine this post whith Bootay post
you would be a    Beach Bum   When I looked at the picture I thought- Joonies hands hurt.
I remember feeling like you are in the beginning when I was so stiff and hurting so bad that I couldn't take care of my personal needs. I looked unkempt, I walked so slow and gimpy. I really only went out to dr. appts. and blood tests but I would think Now I am one of those people others avert their eyes from because it's too painful or awful to look at me.
Joonie,
 
Years ago I read the "The Prince" by Antonie de Saint-Exupery.  There is a line in the story that I  have always remembered:  "It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."
 
From a fella T-rex arm RAer. 
 
 
Joonie,
I do the exact same thing when I see a picture of myself, my eyes are drawn to my hands and arms, mine look alot like yours. I don't get in the picture very often. But I don't think anyone else notices, at least no one has ever said, look at your arms and hands! T-Rex, that's a good one.
I'm so sorry--I can't totally understand, but I'm starting to!
 
I am trying to keep to myself at work about RA because I work with a lot of not-so-sensitive men.  They know about my wrist because I couldn't hide it.  I was just walking around the office the other day, not thinking about RA or being in pain, and one of them says "what's wrong?" I said "huh?" and he said "you are walking like Farmer Joe" (some name from some TV show or something, basically that I had a limp.) Just so upsetting because my hip wasn't even hurting that day, but it was still affecting my walk.
hey joonie,  you are beautiful!  quite a lovely young lady.   remember people who are only looking at our outsides are shallow.   they are too busy looking at themselves to notice anything wrong with us.  i know people like this.    we want people who see our hearts.  you have a beautiful heart and one of the funniest personalities i know on this board.   my momma always said pretty is as pretty does.   i think her momma said it to her, my mom never quite got it but my grandmother was amazing!  wonderwomanThanks everyone!
 
It just bothers me because I have been able to hide my J/RA for a long time... and within the last 3 years I have not been able to hide it from people. I just do not like to stand out, if you know what I mean. I would rather blend into the background and hope no one ever notices me. Been like that all my life. There have been a few times that I have gotten a little "wild" being around friends, and they just thought I went crazy.... because they never seen me act like that before.
 
My mom use to be able to tell when I had too much sugar for the day... because she would know I was around LOL! I am normally quiet and keep to myself. I like being like that. I can let loose sometimes, but I do not do that much and hardly at all now.
 
I am hoping the Remicade will continue to work for me like it has been. My daughter every once in a while gets a glimps of how I can let loose and she thinks it is cool, but it disappoints me because I cannot be like that all the time. And she will ask why I am not like that all the time. I tell her because I do not feel well all the time.
 
I just want to be able to have fun... and do things that are fun. I have been cooped up for so long, if you get what I am saying.
 
You see where I am standing on the beach there? That is the furthest I got to the water. I could not even make it down to the water that day. I was about to kill over standing there taking a picture.
Joonie just because you can not get near the water is no excuse
not to wear a   Bikini...
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