Just wanted to say what a lot of you are probably feeling too - totally and utterly fed up and annoyed and bitter and feeling not fair that I have RA today! Look at other women same age as me (32) and feel pi**ed off when i see them swanning about the place with no worries other then what clothes to buy etc. I hate them and i shouldn't as not their fault we have this evil thing lurking inside us seeking out every little joint that it can find to cause us pain!!!! That what it feels like today!!! I HATE IT SO MUCH. I celebrated my first wedding anniversary Monday just gone and in the day when my husband was in work I watched our wedding dvd and felt angry, sad and wish I never watched it as I looked beautiful and was condfident, slim, pretty and knew i looked it too!!! Today i feel i am not the same person by far as this only came on last November and since then not working due to RA, can't zoom around the place like I used too and HATE relaying on my husband and parents to do things for me as always been Miss Independent since a little girl and that kills me too. I HATE THIS BLOODY RA HATE IT SO MUCH.
You all know what im talking about so that is why i have come on here to let it all out!! Feel better now !!!
Thanks for listening will now go back into living room and sit with my husband, middle son and 8 week old new baby son!!!
They don't even know about my little outburst - that will make me laugh in there all to myself !!! Think im going nuts now!!!
I'm with ya girlfriend!!
I've actually felt great the last few days....and today my backs acting up again. Pisses me off.
I can't seem to get a break!!
Happy anniversary, Chelybel!Chelybel, I so relate. I get SO ANGRY. I don't know if it makes it worse but I just can't help it. I feel full of resentment sometime. It is like I have turned ra into a monster in my mind that I can hate and battle. I also so relate about looking back such a short time ago and what a good life I had and how it pretty much sux now. Chelybel, don't give up. Remember, it was predicted that you were going to have a flare when you had your son. You are just not on the other side of it.
I feel RA eating up my joints every day and I get so scared. I have to go back and read posts of people who have been where you and I are and are back to living fairly normal lives. Remember, you are supposed to gain weight when you are pregnant. I cried after I had my Kelsey. I could not believe how "fat" I was. It comes off and it will for you too once you are feeling better.
We are with you Chelybel. There are better times ahead.
Everything hurts today even my hair.
Yea, I used to get really down looking forward to a life of misery - my catistrophic expectations- but that's not what has happened so I guess it's better not to make yourself miserable about being miserable
Ahh Hulagirl.
Somebody always has it worse, Somebody's always doing better. Having feelings is just human, feelings are not logical -they just are. Give yourself a break. It is OK to have negative feelings. Having negative feelings is not the same thing as acting out!
Julie - il email you tomorrow - got your email address - thanks !!
Thanks Marian, for putting it in perspective.
Chelybel, yes, it helps us to know we are not alone, in all these awful and mixed-up emotions. Now that we got it out in the open, onward to some positive thoughts!
Hulagirl - it won't be mentioned again by me !!!! Out in the open, had a moan, now im getting on with it!!!!
Baby got injections tomorrow love him - worse then this pain anyday!
Night everyone going to dream about dancing the night away!!!
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