You know what the worse part about it all is? I do not remember much from previous years. It is hard to recall much of anything anymore. It is like I have lost my rememories. I have very little rememories since being so messed up RA wise.
Like today I was talking about how much the coreg cr was and hubby said well that is not the most expensive medicine you have been on... what was the one that was more than that one. I was like how should I know?! He said well you took it! I was like yeah, but I do not remember how much it cost.
You're still a pup. Wait until you hit 40. 30 never bothered me but 40 was a big thing for me.
Happy Birthday. What day is it?
Thursday
I guess my mom is coming down to visit me that day. At least I think that is what she was talking about the other day on the phone. Yeah... not sure.
I have kinda been confused the last week or so. I think it is from my rapid pulse again. My memory and thought process is reminding me of before I knew I had HBP & rapid pulse.
I just feel tired. Like I done something and I didn't. My face is staying red again, in my T- area and my cheeks. And I feel short of breath. Is this ever going to get resolved?! I hope so soon. Maybe when I go next month to get the other nodules on my thyroid drained my pulse will go back to normal. Here's to hoping!
joonie2008-06-24 21:38:01good luck. I hope it goes bye-bye and just think, you usually have cake on bdays!!!Thanks!
I just know when I forget something and then someone asks me for the answer and I cannot think of the answer it feels like they are grilling me. I start to panick and think should know the answer?
I kinda snapped at FIL tonight when he asked me when my appt was tomorrow, and I was like I cannot remember. Then he said... well... I need to know if I am going to take you. Then I said I do not know (with much snappy tone). Then he said ok, just call me when you get home and find out.
I felt bad about snapping at him, but I panicked and started freaking just a little internally, because I could not remember what time it was. I told him some where between 9-10am, but I was wrong... it was at 8:40am.
Isn't 30 the new 20? Happy birthday.Well, sometimes it happens. I'm sure he will get over it and maybe didn't even notice. I mean what did he want you to do, pull the time out of your ass? LOL I have a hard enough time remember what day it is let alone what time something is. If I don't write it down on the calender, it's gone, I forgot!Thanks graciesmom! Happy belated birthday to you, too!
Yeah, I do not think he took it to heart. He could tell I was not feeling well. My face was beet red and I just look like I am about to fall asleep. But I am not tired, just feel wore out.
I hope you feel good enough to enjoy your birthday. Just tell fil in the morning, you didn't mean it and I'm sure he understands.
Don't stress!
Getting off the computer, storms and lightening!
I think i am going to go lay down, and take my meds since I have to be up early for the eye dr appt. UGH!!
joonie2008-06-24 22:27:21Oh yeah, 29 is SO old.30 bothered me a great deal. All I could think was that I'd never be "20-anything" ever again. For 6 months before, and 6 months afterward I went through a pre-midlife crisis. Then I got over it. 40 came and went without much fanfare....
But I'll be 50 in 2 years.....I don't plan on handling THAT too well...although, I am physically feeling so much better than I did when I turned 40. Thank you Enbrel!
I was OK with 30- I felt like people finally took me serious. The whole year before my 40th I was OK- I felt like I looked good, I felt good- who cared? Age is just a number! The morning of my birthday I woke up- I felt very depressed, took a xannax and pulled the covers over my head and went back to sleep. Now I am approaching 50 in 2 years also-YIKES!!!! Until I got RA I felt damn good- I probably wouldn't have been too bothered by it.
As for the memory- GONE
I panicked the other day-I was like- I left the RD office without making my next appointment. Did I make my appointment? No I don't remember discussing it AT ALL. No way I didn't- now I'm going to have to call. (Why I panicked I don't know- what's the big deal. I think I was panicked at having no recollection) So later I open my checkbook and in there is my next appointment card.......I still have NO recollection of discussing it...
Happy Birthday Joonie! I agree, almost 30 is nothing!! I am turning 38 this summer and thats getting a bit too close to 40 for me!!
Just a note on your comment about the expansive of the coreg cr-the cr stands for controlled release, its so you only have to take one pill a day instead of a pill in the am and one in the pm. If your doctor doesn't write for the CR and writes for two pills a day, there is a generic and its a WHOLE lot cheaper!! I switched myself a few months back.
Thanks, everyone.
I know... 29 is nothing to worry about. I just do not know where the last 10 years have gone to. I guess I slept the majority of the days/months/years away. I love to sleep, probably my favorite thing to do in life. Yep... my bed & pillow are #1 & 2 on my priority list, than internet and laptop.
I am not depressed about it, just realizing I am getting older, and not recalling much of my life of the past. Probably because I slept so much LOL!
Michele - I was on the regular coreg, take a 12.5mg AM and 12.5mg PM, and it did not do the trick. So, I am back to the 40mg of coreg cr.
LOL. You get no sympathy from me. Come back when you're in your 50s and then you can talk about sagging, bagging, failing eyesight and all the other lovely things that go along with the advancing years. Oh to be 29 again!
50, huh? Well... does it count if my body moves like I am 70?
Milly - coreg cr is a blood pressure med.
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