Yesterday marked the single worst day of my career. I watched a 19 day old baby dying in his parents arms. I had to leave the room several times and cry. I hate this job. I'm not sure how much longer I can see such sadness and heartbreak. I need to find another area that is not so sad. I think it is affecting my RA negatively as well. That, for sure, had to be hard to watch. Oh hon - I'm so sorry - I'm sorry for the parents of the baby too.
Thank God for people like you Lorster who are there for people who are dealing with the worst situations. The fact that you cry shows how deeply you care and people sense that you can feel their pain. It makes you feel good when you know someone understands and can empathize with what you are going through.
That said- if it is negatively affecting your health- you are right to try and branch out into another area in your field.
I am so sorry :(
I agree, get into another area. But you know there will always be some "sad" times with patients wherever you go. In Home Health its end of life, OB babies with poor outcomes, med/surg it's dying family, ER dying traumas. Even in Amb surg we do infusions of cancer patients and watch them decline after getting to know them. It's part of our nursing career. I hope you feel better : )
it takes people w/ compassion such as you to do for those in need... you give from your heart each day.. and sometimes it pains you to do so.On my second clinical rotation I saw something similar. Except that it was a 3 month old and he didn't make it either. It nearly made me reconsider my career choice but I'm glad that I didn't.
BobOh Lorster...I could not walk in your shoes. Shoot, I can barely walk at all in my own (lol). Take a deep breath and remember this is your calling. Let go and let God! I sure hope you're having a better day. That must have been very sad. I have a young cousin whose 3 month old son died of SIDS Sudden Infant Death Syndrom which was very traumatic. She and her husband had a daughter but later divorced. She is now happily remarried to a man who also has a daugher so life has gone on. Don't know why babies die but unfortunately some do. If you are giving them the best care that is all you can do.