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Oh man I don't know what's up with me. I am really thinking I am in a depression. I don't know if I am being hyper sensitive at home or my feelings of being disrespected are true and valid.

All I know is for the most part everyone always likes me a whole lot better when I am upbeat and not when I have problems from time to time.

Not that this had anything to to with me having a problem. My son who I just went out and bought a bunch of things for his new apt this morning told me that he was going to help me grill like I asked but since I got aggravated about him questioning me about why I would grill ribs with BBQ sauce after cooking the dry rubbed ones in the crock pot he would not. (he had a tone in his voice like I was crazy)

I told him tearfully later that I don't care what I said it is was not appropriate to tell me he would not help. I am his mother. especailly since I had just bought him a crap load of stuff.

I went to my room and cried after dinner and I am not a crier.

I went to my RA log and was making notes about my B12 being low and I noticed I have been complaining about the "blues" for some time now. I had been blaming it on my prednisone taper. I don't kow if it's that, the low B12 or what. I guess I better mention it to my RD when I have my appt. this month.

edited for when RD appt. really is

wanttobeRAfree2008-08-03 19:49:46I hear ya... sometimes you have to take a step back and put yourself in everyone else's shoes and try to see what they are seeing. I get rather unpleasant to be around if I am not feeling well for an extended period of time. I snap and growl at family and friends. Nothing like a 9-year old child to look at you and say "dang Mom - why you so CRABBY!!!!!" or my 8-year old saying "I'm sorry your feet hurt... but I'm still HUNGRY" Much hugs to you, wannabe!

I mostly get to be a crier when I just have too much going on and on my mind and then add to that not feeling well and wishing I was better already.

Sometimes things for me seem like they are never going to get better and then when it starts looking up a little something else gets throwed at me and then I have to over come that "obsticle" as well.

I would not say I was depressed, but I do have tendecies to be that way when I am having a hard time. It usually goes away, but sometimes it can last a month or so. I have always been like that since I was a kid. I have had the depression treated before, but that was only because I was VERY depressed and had the baby blues. I was always mad and crying LOL! I was like that for about 6 months, before I got it treated.

Like snowowl, said... maybe it is not all you. Maybe you are starting to wisen up? Sounds like it to me. I am starting to lay the "law" down for my daughter again, and boy am I telling you I know it is not me! LOL!

Hope you feel better soon, and do not forget to mention this problem to your RD.

Hugs!

( why is everything I write on this page blue????

Anyways Wannabe...I just wanted to post this site for you to take a look at. I found it a few weeks ago when trawling the net for info on Vit deficiencies and came across this after reading a HUGE page of positive comments on the site. May not look like a ' real deal ' place, but I have a list of questions for my Rheumy's appt in a couple of weeks re my Vit levels. I have a strong feeling they are gonna be ' up the wop'!! lololol

Hope you feel much better soon and I agree with all that has been said above.

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Cheers.....Lyn

Lyndee- I like blue! It stands out!!

Wanna be- Lyndee had a good point about having the questions for her doc. I think it would be a major point to bring up, they may have something for you.

Depression is a possibility for us sufferers with chronic pain. How can we be perky when we feel like poop?! This winter was really bad for me- I'm in Canada and from November to April I don't see too much sun! My naturopath doctor told me to take 2,000 IU of vitamin D daily, and within 2 days I was so peppy I was annoying myself!

I have to take anti-anxiety meds as well- in 2000 I had a stroke when I was pregnant with my second daughter and it fried the part of my brain that produces saratonin. I had a hard time accepting the fact I needed to be medicated that, but I got over it when I realized how ridiculous I was getting over simple things. I would panic using the phone to order a pizza!

I hope you find relief!
I'm so sorry wanttobe.. Ithink Snow Owl said it very well..

I have felt and done the same things as you... the crying and feeling blue.

is it the chronic illness that gets us down? It certainly has made it difficult for me to deal w/ things in my daily life.. I avoid or ignore rather than deal.. and when I deal I am way more emotional than I would have been pre-DX. It's hard on us who take care of children and/or work to keep up w/ all that and get better... I think that sometimes, we are just plain tired..

Don't be so hard on yourself.. but try to do some things that help you feel good... do somethings that wanttobe wants to do!! ;)

I hope this passes Wanto,

Maybe you are a little out of sync, but then again maybe you are in the same position that I am several of my friends are in. That is, you devote your life (or a huge part of it) to raising your children, trying to be sure they have it better than you did, continuing to help them even after they are grown, making personal sacrifices for them, and they, for some reason, just don't appreciate it. I am not saying these children are bad, I am saying I see it all the time. Why it is that way, I have no idea, I have given up worrying about it. So you please try not to worry and be sad, because that is the last thing you need right now.

I get crabby too. Maybe I need to wear a sign saying "Under Construction" or more honestly "Demolition Zone" and pass out hard hats.

Being sick stinks and it's ok to cry when you feel like crap.

I'm so glad to have this place to come to! Thank you all -it's great to know you all understand!

I have been very fatigued and bummed out about my weight so I haven't had the normal thick skin needed to live in my house. Hence my crying jag- very unusual for me.

Also I'm taking this same son back to school Friday and I've been feeling sad about that. My daughter is moving out the following week. I'm just having all these feelings swirling around besides underlying spouse issues that I have been pushing down forever. Post RA I am finding myself less tolerant of letting people treat me with disrespect. I get mad at them and mad at myself for having allowed it for so many years that now when I stand up for myself I'm made out to be a bee- ach.

Hoping once I've been on the B12 for awhile I'll feel better and have the energy to cope. Lyndzee I got a kick out of something I read on the vitamin website about the recreational use of nitrus oxide can cause depletion of B12. LOL I don't use it but maybe I should! That would be a temporary lift!

Anyhoo- I've been feeling better at work (boy that's sick isn't it?) But now I have to go home....

Wannabe, I don't think most people truly appreciate their parents until they themselves have been parents for a while. He is probably not intentionally disrespecting you; like you said, he's just used to getting his way and having you be the grown-up and take care of things for him. Now he's got to grow up and realize he has to become an adult (though I wouldn't put it quite like that to him!!!
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