Hubby's Family Reunion Update | Arthritis Information

I felt like a freak! Everyone else looke so good and happy and healthy. People were afraid to hug me except for my sister-in-law. All the wispers flowing through the mounds of people and everyone starring. I could barely take it. I just wanted to go home. My poor little Kenna (Boxer) felt the same. She is scared of people and everyone tried to pet her which put her into axiety mode. Kenna and I sat at a picnic table for 4 dam hours enduring this. Finally I told hubby it is time to go.

I know he loves being around his family. If I had one I suppose I would feel the same.

It felt as though I was on the spotlight for being so frail. I put on my makeup this morning so I would,nt look sick..but that did not work. I tried to eat with my father-in-law but he say I couldn't hold the corn on my fork for my hands shaking. So I stopped eating so he wouldn't worry.

I tried to take pictures around the place but everyone saw me limping. I feel like a worthles piece of crap now and don't think I will attend anymore funtions. It's the pointing and whispers that will get you.

Thanks for listening guys I know..whinning again.

LP- it's awful when you are the object of pity isn't it? I always try and look a disabled person right in the eye and smile and act like nothing at all is wrong just so they can have a glimmer of dignity. I am even more conscious of that after being someone who other people either averted their eyes from or looked at pitifully. I hated it! You know they all mean well it just bothers the heck out of you that you are in that state of being so helpless and ill.

You made a good sacrifice for your husband- feel proud of yourself. (Thank God it's over.)

Thanks Wantobe. I stuck it out to make him happy. But I think Kenna is still feeling the axiety. My poor little baby.lost, I'm sorry it was so awful for you. I hope hubby was by your side for most of it, afterall, It was a really nice thing you did for him by attending. I know how you feel though, I find myself looking for excuses to avoid social functions for the same reasons.

Hugs!

Deb

No owiemom, he was visiting with the masses. I just sat with my Kenna.
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