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As most of you know, I have been on a mega dose of steroids since August.  In that time, I've had many issues with other illnesses.  Shingles and cellulitis but mostly sinus infections.  I made it to 45mg daily and plan on trying to taper by 5mg a week, or every two weeks.  It seems as if every time I get rid of a sinus infection and try to restart my MTX and Enbrel it's about two weeks until I get another one.

 
I've come to the realization that as long as I'm on these steroids I'll never be able to take any meds to truly treat my RA.   And to make things worse, since I've been on them so long it will take at least that length of time for my body to recover.  So I guess 2009 is going to be a big pile of crap for me just like 2007 and 2008 were.  I know I'm not the only one here that is having hell with RA and I'm sorry for all of you too I truly am.  I need some kind of outlet though and posting here seems to help slightly with my mental state which is getting pretty bad as well
 
Bob
Bob, vent away. +that's what this place is for. I hope things turn around for the better this year. You sound like you deserve a big break. This disease is so sucky!
Bob- have you discussed this with your doctor? What do they have to say about the frequent infections? Is it the prednisone or the MTX and Enbrel aggravating it? Can't ever get in touch with one.  Will ask the replacement this week when I see him but I suspect that the answer will be the same thing I can come up with.  I wish I had never agreed to taking that huge dose.  It was against my better judgement but she said it wouldn't be for long.Good luck with tapering down!  Stay strong and do your best, we are all cheering for you.

bob, I feel you will get the attention you need at your doctors appointment this week. Hope it all goes your way.

Lisa
I hope so too.  I'm supposed to get a call from my doc in town tomorrow.  Well see what happens.  If I don't get anything from either, then I'm calling the Cleveland Clinic and taking the first appointment they have.  I can always ask to be transfered to another physician there.  I should have just gone there to begin with to be honest.  Maybe I'd be at work now instead of sitting on my bedroom floor google searching RA meds.

Bob, I'm glad you have your apt coming up so soon.  Try not to be down about the time it will take.  I'm sure the taper will have to be very slow to avoid problems.  Just know that with each day that passes you are getting there.

Post your way through this, we are here for you:)

i really do understand.  take one minute at a time.  best wishes with your appointment.  please keep us updated.  i come here too so i do not feel so alone with this disease and many times when i am feeling my worst.   keep posting......   wonderwomanSorry you're having a tough time Bob.  RA sucks, the meds suck and we all have our time pissing and moaning about it.  It's good to release the frustration.  Just find time to enjoy what is good....like......you can get on your bedroom floor!  If I got down there, I couldn't get up, lol.
 
Feel better.

Really?  See this is why I feel so bad about complaining.  Because I truly am not that terrible.  Hell, my ESR was 4 last time it was checked.  Now, this is most likely from the fact that I am on the big dose of pred., in fact I'd bet my ridiculously low monthly income on it.  In the beginning of this flare things were really terrible.  I couldn't even stand up from the chair, I had to get a stool to sit on in the shower.  It was bad and as I cut the pred, I look for things to get that way again.  But as my body recovers while going down on the pred maybe things will get better as far as sinus problems go. 

I try so hard to keep my mind positive, but it's very difficult to fight the depression from the disease and the roids themselves.  Everyone, tell me again that the negative side effects I have (pretty much all of them) will go away as the dose lowers.  I don't know how much longer I can stand these wobbly, weakened legs!  The glaucoma I know is permanent and I can live with eye drops no biggie.
Mainly I'd love for the feeling spaced out and dizzy thing to go away and the weakness.  I think I can even deal with moon face better than those things.   Well, ok and the constant infection problems gone would be a plus too.  It will happen soon I can feel it.
 
You guys should be careful if I do start to feel better though.  I'm one waskily wabbitt when I feel good.  There just may be all kinds of silly going on around here then
 
Thanks for the support everyone, it means the world to me it truly does.
Bob
Silly would be refreshing!!!!!
 
Steroids made my emotions go all crazy, It was a mess. But , when I got over them, my emotions went back to normal. I hope the best for you Bob, it's not easy, best thing you can do for yourself, try to stay positive, keep a open mind when you see your doc FridayGoatee and mustache.  If it weren't for the goatee I'd have more chins than a phonebook in chinatown.  (sorry don't mean to sound racist just think this saying is funny)    I'm really getting concerned about the length of time it may take to rid myself of these pred side effects.   [QUOTE=SnowOwl]Bob you aren't complaining, you're entitled to feel what you feel, and it helps to talk about it with people who can relate and sympathize.  Comparisons to other people aren't constructive, our pain is our pain.  Do you have a beard?  A bit of facial hair can go a long way to reshaping a man's face, my husband naturally has a round face and his beard gives his face balance.  Plus what's a waskily wabbit without a little fuzz?[/QUOTE]
 
I agree

A little fuzz?  I'm Italian, I've gone WAY past a little fuzz!

I feel strongly that you will find an answer. I hope it is soon. I am taking Chloroquine Phosphate. Have you ever tried that. I hate to see you on medicine you have had problems with in the past.
The sinus problem may be in finding the right ENT. The third one was the charm for me.
Things will get better.  And you are on a lot of Prednisone.  When I'm taking 10 mg a day my emotions are nutso.  I cry at everything.  I can't imagine being on a higher dose.  Hang in there, keep writing here as we understand.....and go buy plastic garbage cans.  They bounce back into shape. 
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