...and that's OK! I'll admit I got a little surprised by the whole new forum and especially the fact that I could still log in...
I was here a while back - having difficulty getting a diagnosis. It's been just a tad too long, I guess - I cannot get to my old posts. I wish I could... even my Dr. would like to see them 'cause I'm having a hard time remembering all that I was going through then and begging for help I could not get. Part of it however, was having classic symptoms and nobody taking me seriously including the rheumatologist I was referred to. She didn't even take an x-ray... told me I was fulla sh*t, there was nothing wrong with me since I had no blood markers.
Well, to try to update a bit, I finally got a diagnosis - seronegative RA. X-rays have confirmed damage done in the last coupla' years while I was begging someone - anyone- to listen to me and my pain. I start on MTX next week. I just got a string of vaccinations and tests in preparation. Flu shot, pneumovax, last of the Hep vacs, etc. Right now I'm looking at the syringes and MTX bottle and wondering what to do... and giggling since I do know what to do - just not to myself!!!
My Mother was diabetic - I've known how to give a shot since I was six years old - I've just never given myself one!!!!! I'm sorta kinda skeered. ish.
I'm gonna handle it. Hell. push come to shove, my hubby was a corpsman in the Navy - so has already offerred to do it. But I have to. I cannot rely on someone else to do what I have to do.
I've been back reading for about four days, catching up on the people I got to know when I was here before. A few aren't here, but most are, and I wish I were more demonstrative, but I'm not. I am indeed a lurker at heart. Maybe I'm a scardey cat, but it's hard for me to speak up. Hell, I even have difficulties in real life with letting real people in.
But, anyhow, I'm gonna try to speak up a little. I really need some support, but I'm not very good at asking for help. I don't do it in real life either. Some (most) people think I'm really hard, but what I am is really anti-social because I've been hurt so badly by being open. That's a long story in itself. But for some strange reason, I think I sorta' trust you folks.
OK, that's all I've got fingers to type right now. I hope ya'll will accept me as a concerned, but somewhat quiet, member of your community...
welcome back. im actually very new to the forum. but i look forward to learning from anything you have to share. i am also very quiet but for some reason i actually feel like i can share here.
well..Hello!!! I probably wasn't here when you were before...but good to meet you!!