I am having a hard time dealing again. I guess kinda depressed? I keep thinking that hubby does not love me, and that he is better off finding someone who is better off as a wife to him and a better mother to my kids. But of course, the kids would be with me if we split up. So.... now that I think about it.... that last part is not a good one
He says he does not care that I cannot do the wifely chores. It is just me that it bothers I guess. But still... I get tire of me, I am sure he does. Just been feeling like a bad person all the way around.
I was to go to a baby shower last Sunday, and I did not go because I was hurting, swelled and so darn stiff, and tired! I LOVE Baby Showers! And it was right across the street from me too. I felt so bad about not making it. But I would have made everyone see & feel my misery probably, so was better that I stayed home.
I also did not visit my mommy for almost 2 weeks as well. I was not doing well, and I just did not want to make her feel bad. She has been depressed since her last surgery. So... I just stayed home and moped and watched hubby play his video games.
So... I have just been feeling down, because the Remicade is not working as long like it was.
Oh well... Hubby is going to be here in a few, so need to get off.
Hope to pop in some time soon!
Miss Ya'll!Good to see you 'round here!
Stiff is the word of the month for me. Not a little alot. Chostochronditis. Everywhere top of my head to my toes. Had to have a Lyrica vicoden and flexeril for breakfast. I think I will see a neurologist and get an EEG or what ever. Just to get this one on record. I know this to shall pass but it is a humdinger. My knees ankles and feet were unstable this morning. Crutches are a no no with chostochronditis. I put four soda cans in a bag yesterday to carry up to my room. Ouch that was to much wieght. So I am sort of bedroom bound. When my fibro gets like this I pretty much have to ride it out. It does not really care what meds I take. Hi Joonie, I've missed you and your cute ways of phrasing things. I'm sorry to hear about how hard things are for you. I too had to suddenly miss a fun baby shower due to my medical issues. My shy daughter bravely went without me but would've had a lot more fun with me so left early. Please continue to check in here when you can. I hope your mom recovers well.
CathyMarie
Hi Joonie....we miss you around here; but it sounds like you are finding some constructive ways to keep yourself busy. Good for you. Take care of yourself and visit us as time allows.
Hope all goes well with your up coming appointments.
Hey Joonie -missed you- glad you checked in!
Hey Joonie. Good to see you on the board. We have missed you.
I hope the RD can tweak your meds to get you some relief. Let us know how the appointment goes.
I was thinking about you the other day and wondering how you'd get online. I bet you're right about the in laws computer having a virus or needing to be defragged, we had dial up for years and I was always able to come here. I'd click on a message, get up, sweep the floor, come back and read. Load the next page, put the dishes away, come back and read. DSL has ruined my house cleaning routine. Hope to see you again soon.
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