Hi there
This is my first post.
I have had psoriasis since I was 2 years old (very bad psoriasis between about age 4 - 18, which left me emotionally traumatised, a couple of hospitalisations along the way, and lots of taunting at school)....was generally healthy though and very sporty...
In 1999 (@ age 25), after a nervous breakdown, lost relationship, and corporate burnout, battling with drug addiction (valium.alcahol) I attended a succession of vipassana meditation courses as a way of overcoming deep depression...this slipped me into a deeper type of "detatchment", and set me on a course of becoming quite lost and detatched from life really....i was trapped in a meditation technique that did not value life in the slightest, and merely advocated the acceptance of suffering. I was also experiencing isolation and distance from loved ones, as I was desperate to detach from the world (due to brainwashing mediation I believe, and a susceptible nature)
During this time I developed nail psoriasis and finger joint arthritis. I also began to experience back pain, as I was "spinal tapping" during deep meditation sessions (my back, neck, shoulders etc...have always been highly clickable, something that would often cause reaction from people when i clicked them, and now has me wondering if i have done myself injustice in long term by clicking them)....
Anyway ... over the next few years my work became more sedintary (computer work), and the arthritic condition left me unable to walk most days, and feeling like i was in a hellish fiery 24/7 existence.
I turned to pot, and it messed me up on one occassion to the point that i though i was literally fading away....
In 2007 I began my first course of methotrexate.folic acid, which greatly alleviated my symptoms, and had me over my condition (except for the nail psoriasis) for a good year.
On an overseas trip I caught a virus, which lingered for weeks, and I decided that the metho was jeopardising my immune response..... i quit it cold turkey in rebellion, and started on raw food diet 6 months ago, which gave me boundless energy.....yet my upper back (which is where the pain seems to emanate from) persisted to be almost bending me over with pain like a vice grip....
Went to a Rudolf Steiner Doctor 9 months ago. He injected me with formic acid, and told me my "spirit" needed "integrating"...and that the spirit enters ones body between the shoulder blades...i was a bit desperate, and have since learned that he is a bit controversial in the town i live in, and have resisted going back to see him as it felt like quackery.
Currently (34 years old), I am experiencing the "between the shoulder blade" pain more and more...am back to pot (which makes pain more intense, until i can work through it, then it really helps)...and a new type of problem which is more to do with irregularity in my bowel movements. Sometimes nothing for days, sometimes diahorrea, and a burning sensation in my buttocks and anus, and when I'm backed up I have associated pain in nerves in my left chestal area.....i am hesiatant to return to the metho due to flu warnings etc...had a colonoscopy 1 year ago (which apparently revealed nothing sinister)....i live a very anti-social existence (self employed- live alone), and am worrying that I am becoming manically depressed......when i get high, i also start feeling like i am just a heart beat away from death (morbid fixation), which passes (or does it?) when I return to normal mental states...
I just wonder if any of you have experienced any of this, and if anyone has found good remedies to counter these unpleasant conditions....
This is really the first time I have asked for help
Thanks
Jay
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