I have been fighting off a flare for the last 2weeks. I go to the Rhuemy on 3/22/06. Yet, I have caught another upper respitory infection in the midst of this flare.
I had to take off from work yesterday because I was so sick. I am back today, but still feeling like crap. I thank God everyday for the company I work for and for my job.
But there are weeks it just gets so hard to work when you are not feeling well. If I take one day off or even two...it hurts my family financially. People don't know I am not the only chronically ill person in my home. My son, who is 13yrs old has a blood disorder called Sickle Cell Anemia. It is hard as a mother not being able to help my family more. My husband, God bless him carries a lot for our family.
God knows, there are times like now...I wish I could help more. He was up for a great promotion that would have paid him more and taken him off the road from traveling so much. It would have also helped me in that I could cut my hours at work and be able to stay at home when I am not feeling my best...and we wouldn't hurt in our bills.
Yet, he was passed over for the positions and we are right back where we started.
I keep believing this is only temporary, and this too shall pass.
It is still...hard.
Willwin, You have so much you are dealing with. It must be hard on top of working with RA to have a sick child. I cannot imagine. It is all I can do to cope and I am on disability. Be proud of yourself for what you are doing - you are tougher than most. I am sorry your husband did not get promotion. Remember, THIS IS TEMPORARY. Life changes and who knows what the future will bring. It is hard but is always changing. I hope you get over your flare and infection soon and I also hope someone tells you how special you are today.
Hugs and Blessings
I am sorry to hear about your husband losing the promotion. Knowing what you are missing out on is the worst!
I know what you mean about feeling the need to carry more weight...I make considerably more money than my husband and if I could just spend about 3 months working 3-4 days a week, I could get us out of debt. Right know I am having to borrow $$ just to cover my bills. I feel like our whole lives we are taking 2 steps forward and then 1 step back. I also have a chronically ill child at home. He had surgery in January (day sx---went very well) and so for the whole month of Jan. I was stressing over him. I spent the whole month of Feb. not being able to walk. Now I am chasing doctors for my Husband. I guess that is why you have to step back sometimes and look at all of the things that could be worse. And be thankful for the good things. My kids are happy, my husband loves me, I have a few good friends, I have alot of message board buddies
The things that we take for granted often are the things that matter most...just like healthy people take for granted their health. We should not forget our fortunes. It kind of puts it all in perspective. I know things will come through for you guys...Maybe there is an even better opportunity for your husband yet to come!
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