Today was a meltdown morning for me. I am sick of waking up with
limitations. Some days, for some reason, I think I am going to
get out of bed and feel normal. It is never going to happen, so
why can't I accept that?
I usually do pretty good, but there are times when I get so MAD at RA.
I don't think anyone will be questioning your sanity in that case. I feel MAD at RA all the time. I feel like it cheats me out of all that I want. I'm actually glad I got it at 43 and not younger.
But there are days when I do wake up and feel really good. The frustrating part is the tomorrow that won't be the same way.
Hang in there. But you have every right to feel mad.
They still may find a solution for this illness. You have to hang on to the hope of that. And, you do adjust, and the world adjusts around you because the truth of that is that we have no choice in adjusting.
Here's wishing you many, many good days.
Thanks for the kind words. I just felt really crappy today. I am starting to feel better. Some days I do feel pretty normal. I have just been having lots of pain these last few weeks. I think my body is fighting off an infection and causing me problems. I can feel something in my chest and I think that is the culprit.I'm right there with you. This weekend, I just don't feel good at all.
You get to see the doctor really soon now, don't you? Infections can really bring you down and fast. They need to be checked sooner rather than later. With the meds we are on, our bodies often need an antibiotic to fight off the infection. You can barely have symptoms and still have something going on.
The NextCare urgent cares take most insurances and you can get in there until 8:00. The one across from Chandler hospital is really good.
I hope you feel better and baby yourself today. Of course, that's awfully hard when you have a family making demands on you. But just do what you can and then quit for the day. You deserve to take care of yourself. If you don't, then you are not there for anybody else.
Feel better.
I have been feeling crappy the past two days myself, but I'm blaming it partly on the fact that I'm sending my youngest *14 daughter* off to my brother's today for the summer. I can't deal with her princess attitude and try to recover from surgery in a few weeks and with the RA. She doesn't do anything around the house to help me, she thinks I'm faking all the time about the pain, etc, because she says I don't look sick. I wish I could make her feel half of my pain so she might understand... It's the age, I know. If feel your pains---I have been feeling crappy all weekend long too. I blame it on the weather and the meds. It has been mid 90's here at last couple of days and very humid. I need more sleep and just have no energy. I feel sick in the heat (and normally love the heat). I alos think I got overly tired by going to a conference last week. I was doing great then but crash-landed a few days later. I take my Methx. on Fridays--and I think that is part of it. I get a different re-action every time I take it. Hey, AZ, I hope you feel better soon. I had three really, really bad weeks, and I thought, it's never going to get any better. Since Wednesday, I've been a different person. I can walk, use my hands, clean, play - when it's good, it's really good. In the back of my mind, though, I know this can't last. We never get to just be our old selves again, Makes me sad. You're due a break - you were doing so well when you started on the MTX. Hope you're feeling better soon.Arizona, You just posted this to make me feel better
PS Now every time I read a post like this I want to say maybe you should get professional help.
Hope that you will get feeling better soon:)
Donna