I am so depressed right now - went to the ss attorney yesterday and was told I need to focus on what I can't do anymore and write it down etc. for going to court...Well now I am so depressed because I've realised (once again) how many things I cannot do because of the diseases I have. Was watching "So You Think You Can Dance" and started crying - I was a dancer once upon a time. Not that the dancing was in anyway at that level...but it was my way to let off steam. There is no way I can do any of it right now - in too much pain esp my feet - can't wear shoes right now due to the pain and swelling. I used to be known for my distinctive walk (guess all the years of dancing and gymnastics made their mark) and now I only shuffle. Focusing on what I can no longer do on top of having my husband told that his job is ending mid august instead of end of oct like we were told on the same day is just too much stress...Have so much more to say but my hands hurt too! thanks for reading
I think we are riding in the same boat of despair. It is hard when you sit down and think about what's gone and never coming back. And, healthy people just don't get it.
It must be awful to lose dancing. I loved to dance, but wasn't any good at it. My daughter used to laugh at me. Now, I'm just happy if I can walk.
My healthy friends always say it's just old age and will mention their creaky knee or something like that. They just don't realize how much you lose, that it's not just you don't feel good. You lose abilities, your jobs, your friends, activities that you loved.
But in the end, it is only a list and this list will get you over the hill of getting disability. That's really important.
Sorry to hear about your husband's job. What bad timing. This all must have you very stressed.
Hi gimpymama. I'm so sorry that you are feeling so bad & so down. Honey, we all go through bad, bad times, some are worse than others. How long have you had RA? What meds are you on?
It is terrible when you can't do the things that you once could do, such as dancing, riding a bicycle, using stairs and peeling apples & potatoes. That potato thing really gets to me. We don't like instant. (lol)
I'm sorry to hear about your husbands job. I guess that news was the icing on the cake for you.
When I feel down like you, I always think of the GOOD things in my life. My husband & children & grand kids & family. And give thanks for the things that I can still do. I have been know to make a list of the wonderful blessings that I have. That always helps me to feel better.
I wish you well.
Trisha Thanks Deanna & Trisha - sometimes you just need sympathy from people who know what it's like to have this disease. Deanna - I know just what you mean when a healthy friend talks about getting older and a bad knee etc. They just don't understand how fully it takes our whole body. Trisha - I've had RA diagnosed for 4 years and we are still experimenting with different drugs to try to get it in remission. Currently I'm on Humira, Arava, Mobic, Flexiral, Tramadol, Celexa. I just went off of MTX a few months ago and although I'm happy about that because it always killed me off with all it's side effects my feet have been in extreme pain since then - really hoping the Arava kicks in soon :) Guess I need to do a list of what I can still do as well to offset the negative! Thanks for reading and responding
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