Take a shot at sharing what you're feeling using a simple Haiku; a traditional Japanese verse with 5/7/5 syllables:
Weary, dark shadows
Illuminated by light
Drawn from new found hope.
Powerless are weI have accepted
I am at peace with RA
I maintain spirit
Restless unease now
Heart beating faster
Stop, contemplation brings peace,
Grieving lifes losses.