1 finger typing. This is the worst I have ever been.To those of you who have known me since I first posted, May 2005, know I fought this disease all the way. Onset was Sept 2004. Hospitalized. I am scared. I am crippled. Cannot walk without cane or walker. In pain, ALL OVER AND INTENSE. I took my Enbrel shot today. Maybe I have done it all wrong. I fought it and I feel like I lost. I am sorry this is so depressing but I could never tell anyone else this. I feel crippled. I can't take care of myself. My daughter takes care of me. It happened so fast. I don't blame Brett. I don't want to be with this body
How much prednisone are you on? Have you been on
methotrexate? How about the Remicade infusions? My RD put
me on all this and it has controlled it somewhat... however.... just
back from Vegas and was in soooo much pain.. The knees and
swollen fingers and toes are worse than before. Maybe too much
playing??? hummm
Roxy, I know this is probably not related at all, but could the pain
seem worse because you have stopped smoking? Just a theory as I have
never smoked. I feel so bad for you Roxy. If it were me and
I know that we all hate prednisone, but I would double up on it and see
what happens.
Keep us informed Roxy.
I am feeling like an idiot. I called Deanna. She had me take some prednisone and relafin and I am better. I just get so scared. I am so sorry. I just get scared. Do you remember Hula. Her and I had so much in common. I am so afraid I am going to lose my independence completely. I am deleting this post. It embarrasses me. Thank God for AI. I meet wonderful people like you N & T, Vicki, Crunchy and especially Deanna. I am over panic. SORRY SORRY SORRRY
Don't ever apologize. You have every right to feel that way. We all doRoxy - so sorry to hear you feel so bad
Sweetie, you have just gone through moving..and it was a moving experience from hell that stretched out for months....it is stressful for anyone to buy a home and move. You have just gone through marital hell....the anger, pain, worry about Brett...you are trying to care for a grown daughter that needs your constant supervision...and you have been worried sick about finances. All things being justified...and OUT OF YOUR CONTROL.....and you have been working through this like a trooper...but YOU know...RA doesnt like stressed minds...and it takes it all out on the body.
You know that your life is gonna get better. Your Brett will get better....I know you have faith. You WILL get settled into your home...the money will come. Have faith in God, in your family, and in your friends. It will all work out...and the RA will retreat. This is just a bad flare...it has been in the works since....June? July? And it will pass.
I am making you a promise...it is gonna get better....and I dont make promises I cant keep!!!!
That is what I need to hear. It is gonna get better. Thanks.
Hula was very special. She had aggressive RA and ended up in a foster home in a wheel chair. She was younger than me. We talked a lot. Our disease progress was very similar. She is much braver than I am. I miss her as she understood what it is like to have it attack you so suddenly and devastatingly. She has not been on the boards for awhile.
Well I hate to admit it but pred. is what I needed. I just weaned off
I am calm again and this really encourages me to take it easy some more. My body is worn out and it is telling me so. I need to listen and to listen to all of the good advice y'all share with me. We all have a love/hate relationship with pred but it can work wonders.
Glad that you are feeling better...things will get better.
becky
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