My old boss called today. They are about to do my favorite job, a calendar, that always allowed me to used my most creative ideas so she was thinking of me. She is the only one from there that has ever called me.
I miss working. I was so good at what I did and I loved being around people. I hate what RA has taken away from me.
I know I will find other things in my future. I'm just caught in the in between. But it didn't help to be told today that I might lose my ability to even walk.
I was awfully glad and thankful for her call though. She still believes I can beat this thing because she has seen me do a couple of times before.
I know what ya mean..I miss my old life...my work, and my friends....
good ol' RA did a number on me but hey......I am still alive!
jode
I think I will feel better about all this when I get my disability. Having to deal with no money, doctors and life changes all at once is just so overwhelming. It always amazes me how strong we with RA are & have to be. We lose so much of our life - husbands, friends, sometimes family, our financial status, we are often unable to keep up with friends both from an energy perspective & a financial one. I am waiting for the outcome of my disability application - it has taken abt 6 weeks & nearly drove me mad. An accountant or lawyer could do it easily but not someone with pain, fatigue & half a brain. I hope your comes through soon Deanna & the Christmas holidays wont put too much financial stress on you. Why would we not get depressed, I dont think many people could tolerate the pressure. That is why were are fortunate to have this board & the kind & supportive people that participate. When is it likly you will get a decision Deanna, you are sounding so stressed. Are your family understanding of your situation. I certainly hope so. you will be on edge until your disability is granted. I hope also they soon sort out the problems with your legs. Often with RA we are going through these phases that seem unsurmountable