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  so  out  of  3 nursing  classess  this  semester  i  failed  one...

  and  have   now  2  left  to  finish  the  program...

sadly  I'm not   sure  thats possible

the  economy  here    sucks  and there  are  no jobs

  and  now  Im a     less  than  able  worker...

my life  is  getting  better  by  the  second

I love  what  my health  has  done  to me  so  far  alot  of  hopes  and  dreams  are  in the  gutter....

what  a life    maybe  i  can  repeat  the  class  but  theres  no  promises   ....  I  hope  I  just  dont  completly  fall  apart  now....

but i'm  sure  thats  coming   soon.

Mark,
I'm a newbie here but I understand suffering.  Seems like you're suffering from every angle.  But remember, nobody can make you a failure except you.  Don't think of this as failing, somehow, come up with something that you've learned from it and pick yourself up.  One thing I've learned since becoming ill, about 10 years ago, is that you'll find opportunities where you least expect them.  And they might not even be in the field you're currently pursuing.  If they aren't, think of ways that you can use the knowledge you've acquired in nursing school.  You have to network, network, network.  Get your name out to anybody and everybody.  Tell everyone you talk to what you're trying to do and you might be surprised where that leads. 

I've been at the very bottom and I've been to the highest point imaginable.  With people like us, those who have this DD (dreaded disease), it may be hard and sometimes it might look like there's no way out but there really is.  You have to keep looking for it.

I'm so sorry for the disappointment and discouragement you're feeling but grieve for a bit and then let it go and see what you can make from it.  If you need to fall apart for a bit, come back here where people understand what you're going through.  But please remember, there wouldn't be rainbows without the rain.

Hang in there!

Lyn

  theres  barely  any  jobs  in my   hometown  and  now  it seems  like  everything  i  worked  for  is  turned  to  dust.....

out  of  all this   I  wonder  what  I  have  learned....

will I   survive?    I    don't  know   to be  honest  IF not  i  quess   RA  can be  proud  it  got  someone  who  had  so many  dreams... well who knows  if  ill  even  see  the  rd  doc  now........it's hard  to  overcome  something like  this....... i dont  have  the  strength    so  say  some  prayers   for  this    mark  guy  he    sure   needs  em.

 

I feel for you Mark.  I have been battling a huge bout of depression myself.  You can read my post entitled "what if the drugs don't work."  Deanna has some very kind things to say.  I know our situations are a bit different but its hard all the same.  I must work as well as we can not go without my income but I wonder how much longer I will be able to continue as well.  My heart goes out to you.  Love and hugs.

Mark,

DO NOT GIVE UP!

This is a set back. That's all. That's all the energy you can give to it. If you've been reading about any of my battles, you know that I'm getting pretty beat up. Here's what I do. I take a couple of days when I don't deal with any of this stuff. I give myself a break.

Then, on the third day, I start working the problem again. You have been under a lot of pressure. Nursing school just by itself is a lot of pressure.

Over the last few weeks, thanks to all the times I've been to the ER with my daughter, I met some pretty interesting nurses. They found jobs working as contract nurses for a company that sends them all over the country. This one girl was doing it with her sister and mom. They all came out to AZ together (where there is a high demand for nurses) from South Carolina. All their expenses, including rent, are paid for. She is having the time of her life. The nice thing about these positions is that you make a lot more money and usually have more control over the hours that you work.

That means you could try out different opportunities and get paid good money. So, don't give up on nursing. There are many ways to use that degree.

What is hard is that you are so sick right now without any of the answers that you need. That's what is really hurting you. The uncertainty of the future is a real killer. But you have to hang in there becaise there is so much more life to be had.

I want to give up. I cannot believe how much is wrong with me right now and everything is a huge battle. I'm so very, very tired of trying. But what if I stop. What will that do to my children, to my parents? I just cannot give up. I'm sure you have people that care about you. You need to hang out with them. If you don't have this kind of support, then reach out and grab it and grab it hard.

I am looking at some worst case scenarios right now. I am at my limit. But coming here, listening to others, helps me.

So what if you blew one class. I got fired once too. It didn't end my life. I got divorced, twice. Didn't end my life. And, I'm still fighting no matter what the doctors do or all this illness does.

Look within yourself. You can find that strength. If you weren't able to then you would not keep coming back here.

Your will is to live. In fact, you want a great life and you are afraid you won't have that. But a great life is in who you allow yourself to become, to the singularities that you bring to life on this planet.

Hang in there, Mark. Some day soon, you are going to be telling us about something great that has happened to you.

Hi Mark - am so sorry to hear how hard it is for you.
Do you have a counsellor in your area or a crisis line.
It sometimes helps to have a shoulder to lean on.
Remember that RA changes from day to day and can go into remission at any time so never give up hope. Do you have family support - maybe you could show them postings from this site, sometimes an objective explanation of the difficulties of RA can help others understand what it is like. Keep in touch with this board - it is a fantastic supportive group.
Best wishes
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