My Yorkie Terrier, Chico, died in my arms last night. He got sick New Year's Eve. We could not afford to bring him to the vet on a holiday. I held him in my arms for two days using an eyedropper for water. We did not know what was wrong. Now we think he ate a poisonous fish from my saltwater tank as the tank was left open and the fish is gone. I am numb and grieving. He was my favorite dog of my lifetime. I feel like I lost a family member.
Still no laptop so I don't get on much at all. I was just hoping if I shared my grief, maybe it will help me to deal with it. He died in my arms in the middle of the night after a seizure. It is going to be hard getting through those flares without my Chico in my arms
I am SO sorry. I know what it is to lose a beloved 4 legged friend. I thought I would never get thru losing my Ruger. My thoughts are with you.
Lori
Oh no! Roxy, I'm so sorry. One of the first replies I got on this forum was from you, telling me about your yorkie.
Have you heard of the Rainbow Bridge online? You could put Chico's name in for next Monday's candle memorial. http://www.petloss.com/
Roxy, how horrible! They say that everything happens for a reason and I am sure that someday you will know that reason. In the meantime take extra good care of yourself as grieving takes a tole on our mind and bodyI know your heart is breaking Roxy. I am sad for you. I lost my dog Ponch, a beautiful sheltie born on my 21st birthday, in a very similar way. He developed blood poisoning after a leg injury. We took him to the vet for antibiotics, and he seemed to be doing better, but his condition worsened on a holiday weekend also. We simply didn't have the money for emergency vet care. He also died in my arms, after a seizure. It was such an awful thing to watch him slip away, but in a way, I felt blessed that I was there with him. He didn't need to be afraid, cause his mommy was holding him as he crossed over.
I know I will see him again, and I also know he is okay. We just need to be separated for a short while and then we'll be together forever! When I cross over there's going to be a regular petting zoo waiting for me and it will be wonderful!
Roxy...I'm so sorry about your loss. What a horrible way to end a year orOh Roxy, my heart is with you. I'm so very sorry for your loss.
I think Katie's words were beautiful, and she pretty much said all I was feeling but didn't know how to say.
Peace be with you and may Chico be at peace. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
All of us who have lost a beloved animal friend, are sharing in your grief.
Gentle hugs, Blessings and Love,
Nini
Roxy-I am so sad for you. It just breaks my heart. It is so hard to lose your friend that way. I still cry when I remember the dogs I have lost. Bless you!Roxy,
I know how you feel. I am so sorry for you. I am grieving also. My sweet baby girl, Dusty, a beagle, got sick on the Monday before Christmas. I took her to the vets twice that week. By Friday I had to take her to the Pet ER. They tried their best but couldn't help her. Her lungs were filling up with fluid and she was suffering. I had to have my sweet girl,who I loved dearly, put to sleep 2 days before Christmas. She died in my arms. I'm still upset. I miss her so much.
Roxie.
My heart goes out to you. I know how much our pets are a part of our lives -- our friends, our family and source of love, comfort and support. I can only imagine how you must feel. Try to focus on the love Chico showed you and the love you showed him, and remember he will always be a part of you. I lost my first dog who I grew up with many years ago. It was a difficult time getting over her death, but it got better over time. She will always be a part of me, and I fondly remember the many wonderful memories of my friend.
You and Chico are in my thoughts Roxie.
I couldn't express it very well last night when we talked Roxy, but you know I feel deeply for you. I know this little dog was so precious to you. I think you must have mentioned Chico in every conversation we every shared and what a doll he was.
And, then when you told me how he was your hiking partner and how you could take him with you in places you couldn't take the big dogs, I know how much it must crush you further because he was a connection with something that seems very far away now.
I totally believe are beloved pets are going to be in heaven with us. What kind of heaven would it be without them. I keep putting off getting another dog because I lost three in one year. I get so attached and loved each one (well, there's one I didn't like - huge, ran crashing down the stairs and leaped on me while I was sitting on the couch and loved to crush my poor RA hands in his mouth). But all the others have meant so much to me.
The loss of our companions is devasting. There is nothing more accepting than a loving dog. I'm sorry your heart has been broken again.
Midnitestich, I feel for you as well.
Roxy , Iam so sorry .I know the pain you are feeling first hand. We had a English Bulldog for 14 years. Her name was Jazzy . I loved her like one of my children. The pain will ease with time but your love and memories will last forever. I now have 2 yorkies and love them dearly. They will never take the place in my heart for Jazzy but they earned their own place . They can be a pain sometimes but I love them . They seem to know when I feel bad and won't leave myside. Of course they can make the biggest mess around here. My sister and I went Christmas shopping one day . When we got home, It had snowed in my living room. Snowed with a new bag of Angel Soft Tissue ( a 12 pack) Got love them .. So sorry for your loss JeannaOur four legged friends are definately much loved family members. I'm sorry for all of us who have lost our pets. It is just cruel they have such short lives compared to ours.
You were there for her and her last hours were in your arms, surrounded by your love. She knew, however animals know, that she was leaving her legacy of loving you and being your companion, and that she was taking your absolute love with her, wherever our dear companions go. You gave her your all, as she gave you hers.
I'm so sorry for the ragged black hole of this grief you and midnitestitch are feeling. Thank you both for telling us about your losses. You and your sweet pups will be in our thoughts.
I'm so sorry for your loss, Hon. Please know my thoughts and best wishes are with you and yours. Hugs!
Oh Roxy I am so sorry. I cried when I read that. I know how much Chico means to you. I am just so sorry. I want to give you a big hug. I wish I lived closer. What makes me saddest is he was still adjusting to having a new dog in the house. It is all we can figure is it was that fish. I am very careful with my aquariums but lately I have been asking the kids to feed them as they get a kick out of it. I could not figure out what was wrong with Chico but I was certain it was not Abby's bite, as it was healing well and was not at all infected. It was driving me crazy not taking him to the vet. He made it almost two days. That next morning I was going to take him in. It was the night before that Colton noticed my fish was gone. I knew this guy was very poisonous but who would have thought it would get out of the aquarium. I rack my brain wondering who left the lid open but that is stupid, it does not change anything to blame someone. I have been with dogs that were poisoned and Chico had very similar symptoms. I did all I could. I made an eyedropper out of my Enbrel syringe. I gave him antibiotics that I had left from another illness Tyler had and gave him only small amounts as he was so small. I miss him with all my heart. Everyone in the house just does not get it. The pain is so sharp. I just wish he had been happier before he died. We did take him with us on every errand and he was the only one allowed in the bed so he would feel special. On top of it, I stepped on a two ring square binder and put a huge hole in my foot. I can hardly walk. I feel like a lump of depression on the couch. I am so grateful for all of your sympathy and understanding. I have not buried him yet. It has been pouring rain. I held him for like an hour after he died. I did not want to let him go. I will likely ask Colton or Brett to dig me a hole today near our fountain. I have so many pics of Chico. He was an unbelievable dog. Thank you for all your love. I STILL do not have laptop fixed and I do not last long on this desktop. Thank you again. Midnite Stitch, I am glad you got to be with your Dusty when he died. My only comfort is I don't think the vet could have helped Chico and I am so grateful he was in my arms. I never left his side. I am so sorry for your loss. It hurts so deep. Chico was only 10, they live 20 years. I always thought I would be with him in his old age.
Roxy, I'm sitting here, feeling your pain. It's so hard when we lose our best friend. Even if he's a four footed one. He was part of your family and now it's hard to cope without him. You loved him soooo much. All I can do is wish that with every day that passes, the heartache will lessen.
When I lost my Sandy cat, I was in a fog for 3 days. I couldn't bear the thought of her being buried as I told her that she would always go where I go. So I had her cremated and now she sits on my book shelf next to my favorite picture of her. I will go over to her and rub the top of her box and tell her that mom misses her. I also tell her that she will always go with me. I even have it written in my will that her ashes and mine are to be thrown to the wind together.
I hope that this will help you in some little way.
Roxy, your Chico sounds so wonderful, and I am sure he knew how special he was to you, even with the new dog. To be allowed in your bed, and for you to be holding him when his little spirit left must have meant the world to him. I don't know how to ease your pain, but wish I could. There is nothing like the unconditional love of a pet, those of us who have known that have been blessed. Hugs!Roxy, I am so, so sorry. It hurts, doesn't it? I know you loved Chico with all your heart. It doesn't matter how a loved one dies, you never feel right about it. So many of us have been there. You listen for a footstep. You think you see the tip of a tail around the corner. You long for the routine of a morning greeting, of fixing food, of snuggling together. It's a huge loss, Rox - thank you for sharing with us. I wish we could make it better or bring him back.
Roxy,
I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. I have a 15 year old yorkie and she gets infections every so often and I realize how old she is getting and someday I will lose her. These little dogs grab on to your heart and they are a big part of the family.
I know your house will be empty for awhile with out her.
Again, I am so sorry.
Barbara
Sorry to hear of your loss. I too am an animal lover and understand the emptyness you are now feeling.
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