I have Rheumatoid Arthritis and Borderline Lupus!!!!!!
I am a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend. I am a poet, a singer, a dancer and a mentor. I am a lover, a person with a compassionated heart and I am a FIGHTER!!!!! I am a wife, a clown, I am funny and love music to no end.
I AM an Overcomer, A preacher and a aunt, a AP Specialist, I work full time by the grace of God. I love for people to be alright and happy and whole.
I am a queen, I am goofy, I am ME!!!!!
Why am I saying these things. I started to get down because I have been having trouble walking again. I am suspecting my meds have run there course and a good one it has been. I was getting ready to get depressed because of this flare. THEN, I got angry and started to think of all the things I STILL AM even inspite of this disease.
Also, I was reading an article on a lady who recently found out she has Lou Gehrig's Disease which is fatal...and has no cure. I read of her strength and endurance even though she is going to die. I looked at her passion for life, even though her time on this side is limited. But that hasn't stopped her!!!!!!
I begin to get angry at myself...Not because I am not suffering...but...because as my Grandfather would tell me...there is ALWAYS someone who can tell the story better...and suffering worse then you. He'd tell me...stop fretting and look at the blessing the Lord has given you in this day and say who you are and what you can do.
Today,
Even in my pain...I chose to remember who I am even with this horrible disease. YES, I am going through this flare...But I am not out for the count. Yes it means I am walking funny, YES, it means pain meds and sleepless nights. Yes, It may even mean, maybe , just maybe my time is up working fulltime so my body can heal. Yes it may mean my family will have to live tight for a few months until I feel better. It may mean not teaching dance for a while.
BUT I AM and I AM STILL HERE!!!!! AND SO ARE YOU!!!
I know we have given up a lot, friends, fun, family, income...but in spite of it all...WE ARE HERE and WE HAVE EACH OTHER. Yes, there have been people who have lost their lives to our disease. BUT WE ARE FIGHTERS.
And yes, I am crying right now...but I refuse to lay down to this disease. If that lady with ALS can keep going, even knowing she is not going to make it. WHO AM I TO COMPLAIN!!!!
WE KEEP FIGHTING for a breakthrough...and remember, the battle isn't ours alone to bear. The Lord sends people with good strong arms and shoulders, even if they are gump ones...LOL...to help bear the tears, and rants, and concern.
I just want us to be encouraged today.
WE ARE HERE and WE ARE OKAY!!!!
Roblyn
With a "WillWin" additude like that; you'll go a long way Baby!
Keep it up; and thanks for reminding us all that despite our struggles God still has a plan for us all. "I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me".
Keep filling your head with those positive messages Roblyn. It's key in managing this disease and a successful life regardless.
thank you for sharing all that with us. Even when we are down, we still have to remeber the positive things. I think i read that same article about the women w/ ALS, if it was it was sad though also showed how much strength this women had inspite of her disease.
God Bless!
SHannon
Willwin, That is the first thing I read today. How inspiring. I was feeling all bitchy because I pushed myself in pt and I am paying for it. But now I am looking at what a beautiful day it us, enjoying my big warm dogs cuddled uup to me, qppreciating the fact my sweet hubby brings me coffee every morning and as mornings always do - today will get better. Yesterday evening I needed the cane. ARGH it frustrated me but you know what - I am hard headed. The PT kept telling me I was pushing too hard. I am paying the price and still savoring how much I got to move in the pool yesterday. You are the queen of my day Roblyn. You just made it a good one. Thanks for setting us all straight. With Love and admiration - RoxanneWillWin, thanks for the inspiring words!!
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