Hey Everyone,
I know I have been missing in action lately but I havent been my usual self. Im out of Zoloft and broke tryin to pay rent so for the past 4 days Ive been feeling like a worthless loser. On top of that the pain in my feet is getting worse and making it harder for me to move around, so now I feel like a cripple worthless loser. This weekend I was supposed to be helping my congregation put up a fence around the property, HA! Alll I could do when I got there was sit down on my fat but! Even one of the friends made a comment that she saw me sitting down outside (I was actually sitting at the sign-in table) then she came inside to cool off and I was sitting down in there to. Didnt really help my already crushed spirit.
On a brighter note my neice just gave birth to her 2nd baby boy early this morning and I was able to be there to witness the birth. It was such a beautiful experience to see him come into the world. Im so happy for her, but at the same time it makes me sad because I am so longing to be a mother right now my clock is getting louder and louder
I will try to post a little more now, hope everone else is doing ok!
Shawnie
Shawnie; it's good to hear from you. I'm sorry to hear you are having a rough time with things Sweetie.
I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there. We're here for you. Don't be a stranger....it's good for you to come and at least talk to some friends.
Take Care of yourself,
Lovie
(And you are not a loser!!)
Awwww....shawnie
your NOT a worthless loser! I know how ya feel, about the worthless loser part anyways, not baby part already went thru my wanting a baby episode and forgot how it feels to want...lol. I actually feel like more of a loser and worthless because I am unable to tend to my 8 month old son like I want and need to. BUT I am getting better about tending to him...I just get my daughter to help out. I do not know what I am going to do when she goes back to school.
We'll be here for ya...just come and "talk", we reply!!
Barb
Definetly need to here all of your kind words. Still feel really down but Im gald to know you all care. I called the Pscys office yesterday and got nothing but a recording, so obviously they are closed on Wed. I am going to try them again this moring, hopefully I can talk to a person this time.
You guys are great people. Really glad I know your here! Thanxs again for the pep talks.
Im feeling much better today. I guess its because Im finally moving into my own place this weekend! YEA!!!! I love my mom and family but you can only stay with them in one house so long
Another piece of good news is that I received my handicapped placard in the mail today! Now on my bad days I can at least have a few less steps of pain while trying to get my errands done. I kinda feel a little guilty though, Im only 28 and although my feet and knees give me horrid pain I know there are others with more severe disablilities than me. Just a victim of mothers consciences I guess.
Enjoy your weekend! Shawnie
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