i've just realised what it is i hate most about pain... its that it keeps me looking inward. i will be starting enbrel some time soon and i really hope that it will get me pain free, so that I can start looking outwards again and get interested in other things other than my PAIN!!!!
anna_uk
Anna, i feel from taking care of many people with chronic pain that that is
exactly what happens. Pretty soon, you are overwhlemed with the pain and
you actually fear it and allow it to control you but it is hard not to when the
pain is so overwhelming that you cannot even consider outward interests. I
know that is why so many turn back to their prednisone and you can hardly
blame them as no one wants to hurt 24/7. Pain is such a hard thing to deal
with. I learn so much on here on how others deal with this issue and it has
helped me on my most down days. I hope your pain gets better soon.
What I hate about pain, is it makes me a pain
I get grouchy, like to yell at everyone, get irritated by stoopid stuff, and the pain just makes me feel nutz.
What I hate most about pain is the way it changes your thinking. Instead of just going about life without thinking blissfully unaware like I used to be, now I am immediately hit with how much will I hurt if I do that? I look at every activity, even the smallest, and think about how much will it hurt and is it worth it? So many things I used to do just don't seem worth it. I agree, it can run your life, everything is centered around how bad do I hurt now and how bad will I hurt if I do that!! I have so much that I want to do but just can or just don't have the gumption anymore, like my garden or my scrap booking. Just trying not to focus on the negative all the time is a full time job!
I agree, having pain all the time makes one self-absorbed and it is so easy to fall into thinking only about oneself. I know someone with RA who is totally self-absorbed and so has lost nearly all their relationships with other people. Now I understand how that happened. I have to make a concious effort to think about other people and other things and not myself.
Laker