Kelsey is totally out of it. She is drooling, cannot do the simplest things, if things do not turn around she is going to have to be hospitalized Monday. I might not be able to get her back. It just tears me up. A huge part of me wants a break and a huge part of me is breaking - to see her back in an institution. Social worker said she is not a foster home candidate because of how serious her mental illness is. Everyone tells me I need to let her go - as if that is easy. It would be different if the quality of the institutions were half decent. She is going to hate me.i am sure she wont end up hating you in the long run . i really feel for you , we like to think we can always be there to help our kids and i know that you have done your best and beyond to help your daughter . but sometimes help is needed that we just cant do . it wont be easy but might be the best thing for both of you . i cant imagine what pain you are going through emotionally and physically at the moment but know there are others supporting you in whatever happens . you are a good mum . remember that . Roxy..I'm so sorry your having to make that decision. But just remember that you are making the decision for what is best for everyone. For Kelsey, for you.. for your family. I dont mean to sound blunt or mean but maybe she needs a different kind of care then you are able to give her right now. If you keep her home, it will and it has taken a great toll on her health wise and im sure mentally, and you arent much help to her being in that condition. I couldnt even imagine what you are dealing with right now. You will continue to be in my prayers. Im here if you need me Roxy!I'm real sorry to hear that Roxy. You and your family will be in my prayers.
Roxy, my heart is breaking for you right now. God knows how hard you tried, but it just was not meant to be. You have been a good Mother and Kelsey will never hate you Roxy. Perhaps the institutions in Oregon are better than in CA and if it is nearby, perhaps you could visit or have Kelsey home on weekends. Gloom and doom are hovering right now as it does with all family illnesses, but it will get better with time. Remember to take care of others, we must take care of ourselves first. It probably would be a good idea to hospitalize Kelsey for an evaluation and then do what you have to do.
Sending prayers, love, & hugs
N&T
Oh, Roxy, I am so sorry you are facing this. I know how bad things have been lately, with both of you sick.
I know how much you have wanted to keep Kelsey with you, and have her home in a family setting. But, Sweetie, I really think you may have to let her go, for now. I just don't think you are strong enough right now to be able to take care of her, in this condition. I hope you understand that this is coming from my heart and how much I care about you.
Your life has been a roller coaster for quite a while, now, and for the sake of your own health, I think you need to settle the things that have been troubling you so much. You have been through some drastic life changes in the last year or so.
Do you know what the conditions are in the institutions in Oregon? Hopefully, there is a better atmosphere than where she was before.
I will write you privately soon. Take care, Roxy. There are so many of us here that really care for you!
Much love,
nini
Roxy, sorry to hear that Kelsey is having so much problems. But you know that there are times when a hospital setting is the only place when they get bad. You are not helping her at this point by keeping her home. That is why you have to make the decision for her.chlozaril, resperidol, remeron, Klonipin, lithium, oxybutin,
Brett came in late Friday to visit his son. His son is here for 2 weeks. He took her to hospital as I have been mopping floors, following Kelsey around, dressing her, feeding her, changing her sheets, doing laundry. I am shot. I cannot drive. Bad flare. Thank you for your compassion, understanding and prayers.