Sad, Mad & Frustrated! I know I'm not alone w/ every emotion I am having when I'm here, and I am so grateful for everyone of you and your support. That said, WTF? Really? K, I started up w/ MTX again because my blood cells are so fat they're gonna blow. I quit the sulfazine because it just wreaked me. So I am dealing, (sorta, kinda, but not really) w/ the side effects of these drugs I'm on. LIke the silent but deadly gas(my 4 cats & dog still won't sleep in our room),
We should gather on IM on specified evenings to rant and rave in real time. How bout friday eve.? I think it would be fun. Lemme know what ya'll think.
Sincerely, Monk
Sorry to hear you are feeling so crumby monk. I think we all go through the why me's on occasion. Have your pity party but than move on. Yeah, it sucks, totally but enjoy the things you do have. Rant, rave, cry, throw something, have a drink, whatever you need to do, get it out. Although I can not say if the pain will ever go away but it sounds like you have a great family, despite the critters not being fond of the new stench coming outta your rear end but hey, light an incense! I have found provigil to really help with that narcoleptic exhaustion. We hear ya, we understand, I'll pass the chocolates your way! Love and hugs!(((monk))) you are never alone here. We all feel the need to whine from time to time. It gets so frustrating when our loved ones just don't seem to understand. I hope better days are ahead!
did someone mention chocolate???I'm new to this forum and to the world of RA, but there have been some days in the past week where I've felt the depression and despair climbing and have had to take such a deep breath to force it back. This probably sounds foolish, but there've even been a few times that I've actually blinked really hard and thought, "Wake UP. This can't be happening."
But it's good that talking to others makes you feel better. And I'm so encouraged by your realization of the positives in your life. And, hey, I can see your sense of humor is still intact... now don't we owe those pets of ours now and then for all of their various odors?
Best to you,
Christina
Christina...I can totally relate to you. I'm new too and even though the facts are their I'm still goin "no way, how can this be?". But there it is. Better to face it and handle it then to pretend it isn't real. I guess you know that too.Thanks. Snapping out of my funk, doing dishes then going for a swim w/ my dog. I wish I could post a video of my dog. She can dive to the bottom of our pool (9ft) to get her toys. Amazing. Cracks me up every time she does it. Everyone, come over, we'll play.I'm all for the pool party Monk.
Peace & Love...Neasy
I wanna go swimming! It's so humid here today, and I am all swollen and in pain AGAIN. I wanna come play. Of course yesterday when I had my RD appt, I was alot better! She did do ALOT of "between the knuckles" squeezing, so maybe that helped add pain today also!A pool and chocolate....what more could I ask for? A CURE. Monk, it has to help you knowing that we're all either going through the same thing as you or we've gone through it. You are never alone. Our symptoms may not be the same; some are worse and others are less and then there are the odd, weird ones that no one else has. Or so we think. I'm on MXT but the only one of those symptoms that I have is the lethargy and it only lasts for a day or so. The gas finally went away about my second month of MXT-which everyone in my little household was thankful for. Even my cats gave me odd, disturbed looks when gas escaped. I can't even describe the looks I got from my husband.
Oh yes, I lost my libido and I'm still out looking for it. I know it's around here but it's so elusive. Way too much energy to go looking. Once I find it, it's great, but OMG the hunt wears me out.
If I had a pool at home I would be in it first thing in the morning to start my day off and last thing in the evening. Exercise in the morning helps me get through the morning hours till early afternoon. Hang in there, we all hope that it will get better and for me in many ways it has. I'm 2 weeks post op total knee and it gets better by the hour. Lindy
(((hugs)))) I am around on AIM or Yahoo off and on all the time. Feel free to IM anytime.
We all go thru what you are going thru from time to time. I can get very frustrated with flares and meds and the whole dang thing. Like Michele does...I have my pity party and move on.
Oooo what kid of dog?? My dog loves to swim. I wish we had a pool. It would be a good day for one here too.
Lindy...I am glad your recovery is going so well!!! You are going to be my inspiration when I have my knee done. Just another 6 weeks or so til I am hopefully cleared by my rheumy to get it done!! I am so excited!!